Journey Week 8

I think in this point of the semester, I still don't know what the true meaning of being a leader is.  My community is constantly changing and so am I.. When I played volleyball, I was a setter which is a highly demanding of me to lead the players into winning a game. But I never felt that "leader" is what described me. I just did what felt right so I could help others. I think that is what I am recognizing now in this position. I might have the title of Program Assistant, but I see myself more of a person that the students can relate to and ask me for guidance. Being a leader is not something that I would like to label myself as because I am just a person making some of the same mistakes that everyone else is making.. Their is always the case where along the way there may be times where I have to question what the community is doing in terms of behavior or reactions, but I am still a person. I have no higher stance than them.. 

Something that I have really valued these last few weeks is control. I can show the community things here and there that could help them along the way, but I cannot control how they will react or behave on those guidance. What they choose to do is what they choose to do. I can only control what is within my bubble. I think that within this position, that is highly valuable. As a person, there is only so much that I can do to help someone, but it is their choose on whether they accept it or decline it.