As I am trying to build a community, I feel like, that are few people that I don't see very often. Either they are not in the common area or they don't participate in group activities. So, I am going to change that about myself and have one-to-one conversation this week and next week with all of them. Thank you Ethan for sharing your experience when you did that. I am more encouraged to do that. I am still debating to have a conversation with the person who hung the poster last week on the wall. At least, I will talk about that when I have one-to-one conversation with my resident. I am not sure if the world need to change or not. But, I definitely need to change. There is a lot of things that I am personally struggling with. The struggle in itself is not very easy and comfortable; but, at the same time it is necessary for my own personal growth and exploration of self identity.

I had a personal OS!M last weekend. I don't want to go into details. I am still trying to process what happened and how that impacted the relationship with people around me. I was confronted by one of the amazing friend I have in Boise. I was in tears when I realized how my choices impacted the people around me. What I learned from that experience: as an individual I do certain things, I choose certain words when I speak and generally I am very careful about that. Knowingly or unknowingly sometime, I regret the choice of words that I made. I regret my poor judgement of the situation and do stupid things. I regret what I did. I think it was one of those moments which I really hate at the time when it's happening because it's not easy to be who I was at that time. When I reflect back, it is more than a perfect moment where I get to learn and teach myself. I generally hate generalization, but I am going to make a generalization here. I think we learn more when we are vulnerable, where there is no end to the issue or when I am on the dark side of the moon. Or, at least that's what I tell myself.